I think I have made one of the biggest mistakes of my life. I had the one thing in front of me that I've been dreaming about for the longest time, and I let it go. I mean, it's not that I was just stupid and tossed it aside... She was torn between me and a friend she has known for many years. A friend whom she has been wanting more from for a long time. Then, when the timing comes into play, I step in. I did not mean to. She did not mean for it to happen either, but it did. And it sure did. But I could see the torment this was bringing on in her, and I could not bear to see it anymore. So, I told her she needs to see what will happen with him. Now, I am living with the downfall of that decision. I've only fallen in love like this twice in my life. The first time, it was yanked away from me. This time, I let it go. But, as they say, if you love enough, and let it go, and if the love was strong enough, it will come back to you. This is my hope. Because I am not going to go and try to take her back at the cost of hurting her anymore. As long as she is happy, I can deal with it. In retrospect, I don't know what else I could have done. But it's not over. There are sure to be many emotions to deal with yet.